Mistakes Take It All

Just when I had taken up the courage to get inch closer, the mouth who spoke took it all.
Just when I had started be good, the eyes who despised shut it all.
Just when I had learnt the lessons, the hearts who scarred erases them all.

I have made much mistakes in life that entirely change my opinion towards life regardless how serious they are. I sincerely cried for remorse, yet tears was turned down. No matter how hard I begged for another chance. Even though I tried on changing my attitude of living, behaving, thoughts yet effort was being taken for granted. I shivered for some warmth. I crept desperately in bleakness. I wandered miserably between good and evil, black and white.

The struggle has transformed me into another person with different personality. If I take a closer look, I could say that environment has triggered such drastic change of mind. I'm not the old me, neither am i the soft me. I'm just a perfect stranger to you.

Just when you started to doubt why am i being capricious.
Just when you started to regret of what you have done.
Just when a glimmer of hope has shattered into dust.

Who should we put this blame on?

Just when we listened to too much of grievances.